Anxiety

Even though I haven't posted on here for a year and a half and probably won't again for a very long time I just have to make a post now. I have all these feelings of irritation and anxiety right now and just need to rant about it. Facebook and twitter just aren't the right places for such a post.

Okay, first the irritations:
Right now I'm in Life Skills and the kid who sits beside me I just can't even handle. I won't go in to the details because I don't want to sound mean but he is so strange and has irritated me since the beginning of the semester. I just can't.
Then there is the class song nominations and just the music choices of others in general. I would like the song that is played at graduation to sound decent and actually pertain to the situation. However some people are nominating fun. songs (I have a deep hatred for fun.). People are entitled to their opinions and I understand that, that's not my problem. I can't stand the sound of the lead singer of fun.'s voice, and it seems that people who "enjoy" fun. don't exactly think his voice is great either. Why then would you listen to and even nominate any of their songs for graduation? Choose someone who doesn't have an irritating voice. If you like the songs but not the singer listen to covers, sing it yourself, or anything but listen to their voice! I just don't understand.

Now the anxieties:
I still haven't started on my graduation speech, graduation is next week. I just have no idea what I'm suppose to say and what's expected. And assuming I get it written in time, I am also so extremely stressed about giving the speech. I HATE public speaking and it doesn't help that the entire gym will be full. I've never spoke in front of a crowd larger than 30 and even then I was a nervous wreck. So afraid.
I also feel everything is moving way too fast. I don't feel like I have time to prepare myself for anything; the speech, graduation, moving, getting a job, everything. My anxiety levels are beyond ridiculous and I don't know what to do. I won't even get into my stresses about college and not getting any scholarships.

Even though no one will most likely read this I apologize for how long this post is. I just had a lot of built up feelings I had to get out. I feel a little better now.

Days until graduation: 10
Stop the hate, don't discriminate

Back to Black.

Wow, I suck at posting on here. I'm not even going to try and make up good excuses, I just never think about it. Well, I had a pretty decent Christmas; I got lots of money, candy, and some gift-cards. I also got a few other assorted things. I'm excited to get my presents from Jared and Megan today and then hang out with them. There's not much I have to post about so the last thing I have to share is that I've dyed my hair back to as close to my natural color as possible:

Not black, but dark brown.

Christmas Break!

Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate

Post Title: Amy Winehouse-Back to Black

Leaves become most beautiful..

..when they're about to die.
Yeah, so much for trying to post more and finish my thirty day challenge. With school and trying to maintain a social life (a.k.a. living with Jared and Megan), I have not had time to post, or even think about typing any posts for that matter. I would say I'm going to try and post more but I'm almost 99% sure that after we go back to school from Fall break I won't be posting anything. Anyway, my Fall break has been great so far, getting to be with my boyfriend, going places, and having fun. Here's a picture from when we went to the park the other day:

I love him so much and I always have a good time when he's around. I wish we could just live together, right now. 

Days until Christmas break: 45, give or take a few.

Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

P.S. This is where I got my post title from: Time Is All Around-Regina Spektor 

Time flies when you're having fun.

Wow, I've only posted on here once the entire month of July. I'm only on day 18 of my 30 day challenge. I guess I'll try to do that sometime in the near future, but I don't know. I'm always so busy or too lazy to type a blog post. I'm sad that Summer is over, because it was the best one ever. I really do not like school; waking up early, having to listen to the ignorant inhabitants of this county, walking everywhere, learning useless information - yeah, not a fun time. So, I'm either gonna be really sad or angry everyday. I'm gonna need a bucket for my creys. That is all.

Last day of Summer. :(
Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

Like an apple on a tree.

How did I not know of this incredibly talented, wonderful woman until now? A Fine Frenzy = Love.

Summer!

Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate. 

Day 17: Things that make me scared.

Well that's a lot of things, but I'll limit it to ten.

1. Seeing a spider. No matter where I am or where it is, I am terrified.
2. Making decisions. I mean I just suck at decision making.
3. Getting old and wrinkly. I just don't want to be a crazy old man.
4. Death. And what comes after it.
5. The working world. I'm afraid I'll never have a steady job.
6. Driving. I'm not the worst at it, but I'm not the best. It's just so stressful.
7. Singing in front of people. I will have to overcome this one.
8. The Ocean.  Just pretty much everything about it.
9. Losing someone I love. No explanation needed.
10. Leaving my friends behind after High School. Makes me more sad than scared though.

Summer!
Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

Go on take everything, take everything, I want you to.

Yeah, I've been on a Hole kick lately. I just love the songs so much. This one is called Violet and it is from an older album of theirs called Live Through This. The lyrics in this video are not 100% correct; for example it's "I wanna give my violet more violence" not "I want it again, but violent, more violent" (That doesn't even make sense).

Summer!

Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.