Lonely.

So, I watched I Love you, Philip Morris today and it was pretty epic. Ewan Mcgregor did a really good job in this movie, he was very convincing. It was so cute, I almost cried. Lately I've been really lonely and this movie didn't help any. They were so in love and it was so romantic, it made me sad. I want that. But besides making me feel even lonelier it was a very good movie. I also watched 172 Hours, that was intensity. It at points made me a bit sick, because it was kinda gruesome, but it was a really interesting movie. Both of these movies were based on true stories, so that's pretty cool. I definitely recommend both of them, especially I Love you, Philip Morris- it was so cute. So, yeah today was what I would call successful.

Days until Summer: 19!
Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

Glee makes me sad.

It's suppose to do the opposite for people, hence the name, but not me. I mean I love watching it and all the people in it and their performances, but it always makes me sad. I guess the reason for this is that I wish my life could be like Glee and it's not. I want their talent, their acceptance, their fake tv show life, just everything about it. I guess I'll just have to learn to love my life the way it is and accept that it can never really be like Glee. Bummer. Eh, I guess my life is pretty decent, I can accept it.

Days until Summer: 21!
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We can tear it up tonight.

That's "How I Roll". Oh, Britney. I love her. I love Femme Fatale, it's pretty amazing. Also I thought I should mention that Hannah Gayle is a wonderful lady. I love your blog post, you speak the truth. Oh, and you used my catchphrase, props for that. Keep being the beautiful person you are, you help me maintain my very weak faith in humanity.

Days until Summer: 22!
Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

Sickish.

I'm now going to provide you a breakdown of my day. I woke up dying of a stopped up nose and sore throat, not fun. I got ready and drew a heart on my wrist for the wear your heart on your sleeve thing today. I did it in sharpie so it may be there for a while. Then I went to school, first period, and then to start testing. Testing is never very exciting and it is a bit dreadful whence sickish, no matter how simple it is; and believe me this test is super easy. But I made it through and had over an hour left. I finished my book and became extremely bored. So to entertain myself I flexed my wrist repeatedly watching the heart get smaller and bigger. This is only interesting for so long. So, I ended up staring into space until lunch. Oh! After lunch something interesting happened in the gym. I won't name names but whilst looking at someones phone, pictures of vagina's were found. Disgusting. Why someone would want vagina's on their phone I shall never know. But, yeah that was my day. I hope I feel better tomorrow.

Days until Summer: 23!
Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

STFU.

While I do not cuss in person or in writing, sometimes people really make me want to. And using acronyms that contain a cuss word is not the same as cussing, so I'm allowed to do that. Here is a list of people that I want to tell to STFU:

1.) All the ignorant and discriminant bigots of my school, as well as in the world. While they make me wanna cuss and argue with them, I have realized that you can't do anything about these people. There is no use in trying to change their minds. They are a lost cause and in a way I feel sorry for them. But then I still hate them as well.
2.) All the Obama haters. You really have no excuse to be hating on my Obama. I don't care what you say, you need to stfu.
3.) Radical religious people. You can not use the bible as an excuse for everything you do. While there is war, rape, murder, molestation, animal abuse, and many other horrible things happening you protest against love. This is not what God wants you to do. If you are really as religious as you claim you are then you should know that you are going to hell for your hate crimes.
4.) My dad. I do believe he has some kind of mental problem. Most likely bipolar disorder. He gets very angered over the littlest things and will make a huge deal out of it. He tries to tell us that we are the ones making it into a big deal, because he thinks he is always right. He always uses really rude sarcasm to answer my serious questions. He doesn't listen to us, he just yells and overpowers our protests. 98% of the time I want to tell him to stfu. He needs to calm down.

Days until Summer: 24!
Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

"I never said I was in your closet."

Saw Scre4m tonight. It was amazing. Somehow it was the perfect combination of funny and scary. I have so many favorite quotes from it, I wish I could share them all. I don't want to spoil the movie for anyone so I won't talk about it. Other than to say it was a very good movie and I recommend it to anybody. I had a really fun time tonight and it makes me want to do things like this more often. However the drive home was rather frightening. It was pouring so intensely that we could not see the road for a very long time. We drove very slowly for fear of hydroplaning. But in the end I made it home safely, so it's all good.

Days until Summer: 24!
Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

Heavy.

Tegan and Sara.

So, today in glee I had to sing Heavy by Tegan and Sara all by myself. I thought I did decently considering how nervous I was. I chose this song for two reasons: for one it is in my range and two it is not very musically demanding. While I can sing more musically demanding songs when I'm by myself, I can not in front of people. I freak out because I keep thinking I will mess up and so I just don't do it. However I plan to build my way up to being able to do this, as it is necessary if I am to be a singer. But for right now I am not ready. I would post a video of the song, but blogger will not allow me for copyright reasons.

Days until Summer: 25!

Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

Men and Music.

So after all this time of receiving zero messages from any colleges I finally get three. However none of them are located in Kentucky. One is from a college in Tacoma, Washington called Puget Sound. I don't know what the Puget part is, but the sound part makes it seem like a music oriented school. This would be cool, but it's very far away and it always rains in Washington; I don't like rain. Then I received two from Wabash College in Crawfordsville, In. This college is an all mens college and I think they are trying to use this fact to intrigue me. They are trying to tempt me with their men. It won't work though, because I really do not enjoy Indiana and this offer is not enough to make me want to go to college there. So, yeah I wish some better colleges would contact me; it would be nice.

Days until Summer: Okay, so I suck at this countdown. I learned today that we get election day off, so the number is now 26.
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Stupid Tornado warning.

Ruining my sleep cycle and whatnot. So, I was sleeping and minding my own business when at 10pm my dad enters my room and is like "There's a tornado warning". And that means get up and get ready to get in the basement. My basement is more like a cellar and can only fit about five people. It is also extremely nasty and muddy down there. So we go down there with our radio and wait for the all clear. It was not until 11pm when we get out of there. So I missed an hour of sleep for nothing and I am super mad about it. I am really tired and cranky; this coffee better help.

Days until Summer: 28!
Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate. 

My brain is failing me.

I'm pretty sure I had something in mind to post on here today, but I can't remember. I guess I'll just talk about my day. Drivers ed. was a bit boring, because being an aid I do not do anything. I just go to the library and sit with Coreena; conversation with her is always fun though. Then world civ. was stupid, as it always is. I guess English was ok; we didn't really do much, so that's always good. Choir and Band sucked, because my back was dying and I did not feel like singing or playing an instrument. Today was my first day to band since last Wednesday, so that made it worse. Glee was uneventful. Piano lesson went well, my piano teacher is crazy; she even said so herself today. So that was my day, fun times I know.

Days until Summer: Apparently 28 still, since now we are going good Friday?; Lame.
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Frustration.

So, I skipped the last two periods of school to meet with Mary Kinney over at octc. I was hoping to solve my college/high school scheduling business, since Mr. M never seems to know anything. Well she told be to go ahead and take AP English and AP US history. However instead of pre-cal she wants me to take college algebra at the high school. And I guess I'm still gonna take physics. :/ Then she signed me up for a sociology class that meets from 12:30 to (i think) 1:15 on Mondays and Fridays. Not sure how thats gonna work. She also said we would be adding more college classes as we figured things out. I don't know how my high school classes are gonna work around these college classes. I just hope Mr. M and the college can work things out for me; I really want to get ahead in college. On a positive note, as far as I know, I still get to do band. But other than that I am just confused and frustrated.

Days until Summer: 28!
Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate.

jaaaaaaa.

I don't really ever listen to Justin Bieber and therefore cannot state an honest opinion about him. However, I love Julia Nunes and this cover/mash-up she does using his song Baby. It's pretty amazing; I just wish she would make and post more cover songs like she used to. Now that she's become a little more famous she barely ever posts any videos; it makes me sad. But I still love her and this song is really good.

Days until Summer: Still 29.

Also from now on I declare my quote from one previous post "Stop the Hate, Don't Discriminate." to be my catchphrase and will therefore appear at the bottom of posts. It's a very good message and I want to constantly remind people of it. So, yeah.

Food=Complication.

If food were not necessary to survive, I would probably almost never eat. I have so many problems with food. I know that when I'm hungry that I need to eat, however I can never find anything I want. I have problems with not only the taste, but also the texture of foods. If it's not one thing it's the other. I want to eat healthy, so I stay away from junk food and most things considered unhealthy. But I hate most healthy foods, their textures and tastes are hate crimes to my mouth. The healthy foods I can handle are bland and very boring. I get tired of them quickly and then there is nothing for me to eat. It seems no one can help me with this problem. Life would be so much easier if I did not need food.

Days until Summer: Still 29.

I've learned Love is like a Brick...

...you can build a house or sink a dead body. I love this woman. Today was GLSEN 2011 day of silence, and I am proud to say that I made it the entire school day without talking. It was difficult as there are always opportunities to put forth my opinion, however I feel strongly about the purpose of the silence and did not give in. Then we had a forever long pep rally and it was actually pretty entertaining. People really sucked at their cheer leading attempts, just say'n. After I got home Mary Rachel took me to tj Max, where she works, and helped me find some summer clothes. I ended up getting ten thousand shirts and only one pair of shorts. I didn't like any of the shorts they had to offer; I'm not a successful shopper. But anyways Judas came out today and it is pretty amazing. I can't wait until May 23rd when the entire album comes out. I love Lady Gaga; she inspires me.

Days until Summer: 29!

It's Tye Dye For.

Hahaha, humorous pun. No, but seriously I'm wearing my tye-dye t-shirt tomorrow. Why, you may ask? Because tomorrow is the GLSEN (Gay, Lesbian, Straight, Education Network) 2011 Day of Silence. Basically this day is to raise awareness of bullying of GLBT youth in todays schools. What does tye-dye have to do with this? Well I went to the DOS website and it said to further show your support you can either wear red or something rainbow related. Rainbows as we know represent the gay community and tye-dye is the only thing close to rainbow clothing I have. I was gonna post a picture, but you'll just have to wait until tomorrow to see it. It's gonna be a good day, I can already tell.

Ps: Do not try to have conversations with me tomorrow, for I will be silent. Obviously.

Days until Summer: 30!

A "K" in it's natural environment.

I like to call this my baby k, because compared to everyone else's letters it is significantly smaller. We made 3D letters in drawing class last nine weeks and it was really fun. I really miss drawing class and Mrs. Sparks, because that class was so relaxed and non-stressful. Well, anyways these letters were supposed to be decorated to represent our personalities. So, I chose the colors red, black, and silver because I really enjoy those colors together. I'm not sure what it is about these colors, I guess I think they look classy? I painted a tree on the front because I have an obsession with trees: they are beautiful. I decided to add the silver glitter at the last minute because I felt it was lacking. I guess you could say that the glitter represents my sparkling personality, but I just picked it because it's shiny. The polka dots on the back were just to fill up space, but I actually think they pull the entire piece together. I use the word really a lot, but oh well. So, that's my baby k and I love it. 

Days until Summer: 31!

The Piano King?

This is what my Tuesday nights consist of; Piano lessons and Smoothie King. My piano teacher is a really nice and funny lady. She is so supportive of my playing abilities, always saying how good I'm doing and stuff like that. Lessons with her always brightens up my day. Then when I'm done with that I get a smoothie at Smoothie King. I've tried so many different flavors, it's crazy. They are all so good and I'm officially an addict. My favorite however would have to be Angel food, it is very delicious. Today was a good day, and a specific person from yesterdays post was not at school so that was a big plus.

Days until Summer: 32!

Stop the hate, Don't Discriminate.

So, today in World Civ we were taking notes about a psychopathic King who had a gay son. Mr. P was saying how the king hated this son. The ignorant people of my class were like "I would hate him too", "What! he's gay, gross!" and other insulting things like that. Then Mr. P said how the king constantly beat this son. And Micheal Powers says, "Good, maybe he can make a man out of him"..... Excuse me! Being gay does not make a person any less of a man. If anything, it makes them more of a man; they have to put up with constant discrimination from dangerously stupid people like you, we are constantly fighting for equality and rights that should have never been taken away. So, anyways I hope you burn in the fiery pits of Hell Micheal Powers, you and all the ignorant people who agree with your opinions.

Oh, and Days until Summer: 33!

It's the Final Countdown.

Not really, I just needed a clever title. However it is a countdown and an exciting one at that. I'm going to start adding a countdown of the number of days until summer break at the end of each blog post. This is the first day back to school and needless to say I am not enthused. I got pretty much zero sleep and am definitely in need of coffee. So, we'll see how the day goes.

Days until Summer: 34!

This was meant to be posted this morning, but for reasons unknown that failed. Well, anyways there you go.

And correction; Days until Summer: 33!

About Me.

1. Music is everything to me. Without it I would die. Music is one of the few things in life that makes the world Beautiful. I hope to one day become a singer and if I accomplish anything I at least want to bring beauty to someones life. One person is enough, although more would be pretty great.


2. I hate school. I hate waking up early and getting ready, I hate riding my bus, I hate being taught useless information, I highly dislike quite a few teachers, I hate the crowded halls, and I hate having to listen to ignorant people and their insulting comments. However I try to use my friends as inspiration to drag myself to this horrid place everyday.


3. I have wonderful friends, but I do not go out that often. I want to change this because when I do go places with my friends I always end up having a great time. They are all so fun to be around and they make my life happier. Friends are another of the few things that makes the world beautiful.

They will stop degrading us.

I love Muse. To me these two songs are a good representation of the constant struggle of the gay community for equality and rights. Whether Muse meant for it to do that or not (most likely not) that's how it comes across to me. Thats the beauty of music, it can be interpreted a thousand different ways depending on who is listening. The Resistance is a wonderful album and Muse is just fantastic. Enjoy.

Controlling my feelings for too long.

                                                                                                                                  -Showbiz by Muse

This is a very good song and the lyrics, for the most part, represent how I feel. This song is from their first album back in 1999;.... I like old songs. It's pretty great, I recommend listening to it.

So together, but so broken up inside.

Sorry to go all Kelly Clarkson on you there, but that's how I've felt most of my life. I was keeping a huge secret to myself for years. I hate lying to people. I'd always put on a brave face and muddle through my days knowing I was not being completely true to who I am. But now that I have this blog I feel much, much happier. I believe it is a good start to putting the pieces back together again. I think I'm really going to enjoy this, and like I said before; I hope you do too.

Oh, and by the way in case you didn't know, the title is lyrics from Kelly Clarkson's song "Behind these Hazel Eyes". It's kinda old, but I love it.

I'm Gay.

Big shocker, right? Not really, if it is then you are really dumb. Fo real. Anyway this is my first blog ever and I figured it would be best to start with this information. I want to be really honest and open and thats not gonna happen if I am constantly hiding a huge part of who I am. If you don't like this, then get out of my kitchen, so to speak, because this is my blog and I don't care what you think. So, in conclusion my life isn't very interesting, however my ideas/opinions are. (or at least I think so). So that's what this blog will be all about. I hope you enjoy.

P.S.: If you don't believe this is really me and you care enough to ask me in person, at school simply say, "Is it true?" and I'll say yes, because I'll know what you're talking about. Or just private message me on Facebook or text me or something; whatever you want. Just don't make a scene about it. Please and Thank you.